Three Things I’ve Learnt About Meditation
LEARNING TO MEDITATE
I first began practicing meditation around 6 years ago now, and at first I really wasn’t sure if it would be for me. I was an extremely anxious person, struggling with panic attacks, feeling burnt out and constantly overthinking - how on earth was I meant to be able to switch off and meditate! I thought no this will not work and I will not be able to meditate.
I tried a few methods out and some didn’t work, but I carried on trying as I knew I wanted to be able to feel calmer, less anxious and reconnect to myself again. After a few months I found a way for it to work for me - I couldn’t believe it! Instead of trying to sit for half an hour to an hour, as that just felt too much for me at the time, I began building up with just a minute, then two minutes, and so on. I also finally realised that it was ‘normal’ to still have thoughts, and it was more about being aware and letting these go. It felt good to have found a meditation style that worked for me. I learnt from some incredible teachers along the way and now find this practice valuable to my everyday wellbeing.
When I was at the height of struggling with my mental health and constantly worrying I realised I wasn’t connected to myself anymore, everything was external. I was looking for answers externally, trying to solve the things I couldn’t from external sources. By sitting with myself and just focusing on my breath for 5 mins a day I was able to listen to myself again, I became aware of what I needed to feel good, shift out thoughts that didn’t matter and things outside of my control, I became aware of my breath and how to manage my anxiety, it helped me connect inwards instead of externally when making decisions.